duno is it bcoz of the age increasing, t4 mindset will somwhow being affected or watever reason, i feel extreme lonely, empty, scary especially late at nite. this kind of feeling is so stong lately.
last nite, after i saw my gd frd get into her bf car and drove off, i was alone in the bustop waiting for the bus to go home.
during that moment, i was so lonely. it was not the 1st time to have tis kind of feeling b4. i took out my hp, wondering who can i call for a chit chat while waiting for the bus. i d nt call any1 bcoz i simply duno who can i call. it was sat nite, most ppl probably enjoying themselves outside w/ frds, who want to bother to chat w/ me. beside calling them "hw r u" sound so weird. it is like out of sudden call the person up and asking hw r u and later scare no topic to continue the conversation.
looking at my hp contact, actually i hv frds to keep in touch, frds to catch up w/ and i shouldnt be so lonely and empty but i still feel sometin missing inside me.
last nite i wouldnt slp again. the tv was on but im looking at my hp contact. i msg a frd but my frd was busy so d nt get the chance to chat. i forced myself to slp as it has been 1am plus but i still lookg at the hp. im wondering wat to do on my wkend since i no nd to wrk on mon as it is public holiday. either i ask my frds out for ktv (i dont feell like spending too much $ on enterainment) or i go and learn knitting (i start to lose interest). in the end, im still writing blog nw, still undecide wat to do later in the afternoon.
my cousin told me to make my life more interesting but i duno hw. neither do i wan to spend $ on enterainment nor im a nite lover or sporty person. mayb i can say im quite a boring gal.