aft reading my frd's blog, i felt kinda gulity and apologized and regret and bad.
i never knw that w/o my pressure during our always-3-gals-gathering dinner, will make her and my other frd feel kinda disappointed.
i never knw that my pressure can be so impt and will affect my frds' mood for the dinner until i read my frd blog and realize it.
i d nt attend their gathering dinner bcoz i was held by wrk, partly was oso moody abt my wrk performance and colleagues and enviroment and other reasons too, that i feel i shd keep to myself for this. (dont ask me!)
actually, dont know since when, im hv become very moody and unhapi abt the wrk performance, the job, the enviroment, the colleagues, almost everytin relate to wrk.
im lazy to mention wat is goin on abt my job, my wrk matter, juz tat things r nt smooth and successful at my side.
sometime i hv this crazy idea that i wan to disappear frm this world for a short period of time.
dont reply sms, dont pick up call, dont accept invitation, dont do anytin, juz like a transparent person who live in the world. this sound crazy and inrealistic.
mayb tis is wat every1 will go thru tis process of wrk stage, wrk emtion, a kinda of struggling.
i hope tat tis process will be temporary and back to normal again.