before i know we r togather, u said u want to breakup w/ me.
sound funny and silly? when im uncertain abt our r/s status whether attached or still single, u said u wan to breakup. nw then i realise that those times when u address me as DEAR over sms, we have "started the game". now u chose to end the game youreslfanytime u wan.
the reason u wan to end the r/s is mainly bcoz i cant give u s**, which u say or all the guys need it. u said i oways need time to mtally prepare for the s** with u and u cant wait, i tell u b4 tat i dont want to get married, dont want to hv kids in future. beside eversince u start wrking, u hv changed. u r no longer the same old guy i neo b4 who can give secure in the r/s anymore. ur behaviour, ur attitude, ur friendster all hv betray u. u hv alot of 'gfs' outsides, give the impression that u will run away.
later u said i take things for granted, i asked u to explain in which way but u d nt reply me.
u said i dont understand u but d u understand me as well?
u said i give u pressure. i neo u r busy, t4 oni dare to sms u 1 msg only everyday, ask u to take care, rem to take ur meal, tell u hw i feel, wat i plan to do, n i miss u too.
u said u dont have time to acc me, dont wan to waste my time. i neo u r busy, t4 i take yoga classes, to accupy my time over the wkend and wkday aft wrk.
u said u dont wan me to waste time waiting for u to call me or sms me (mayb bcoz u r busy). it is juz a execuse. a simple sms "i love u", "i miss u", "taken ur meal?", "wat r u doing?" believe wont waste alot of your time, rite? it even spend the time lesser than u go to toilet, smoking w/ others, hving meal w/ others, chat w/ others. Please dont find such an execuse. it all depend if u reali wan to do it wholeheartedly. i believe if u reali luv your gf, no matter hw busy, u will wan to know hw is she doing, if ok, telling her hw u miss her deeply when u hv nt seen her afew days, which i d sms in my truest sincerest heart.
u said u hv given our r/s, gave me many chances but i d nt treasure. Your chances of treasue the r/s is 4 me to go to your hse and acc u when u need it?
u oways find faults on me, saying me tis n tat. am i reali tat bad enough? or is it juz bcoz u know i still love u, t4 make use of me to acc u for the time being when u r still single? im sorry to say tat but this is juz hw i feel all along. each time recvd your sms, ask me to go to your hse and acc u, is a way of prove tat u miss me, need me as a gf or u juz need a acc to hv s**.
we wont be seeing each other again. we wont be sms each other again. never.
the hurt u hv been brought to me has been so deeply all the years, not juz recently.
u give me hope, short term happiness, but long term sadness... ...
bcoz of u, u hv affected me everytin: marriage, r/s, guys, sex, future... ...
i hope your look, your memories, your contact no, your words, your hurt, your love, your hate, everytin all abt u, ease from my mind, my heart, my soul forever, n ever...